I write the following story in my best English about an happening I lived ten years ago, related with whom you discuss for many years.
I ´m not here to convince anyone, you don´t have to believe this story at all. I only want to share with you an experience I lived that really gyved me answers, and at the same time questions,
something that use to happens in cases like these.
Once a time I believe it was March 1998, I started visiting an Dutch recognized therapist and psychic called Hans (nowadays retired).
I am Spanish but was living then in Rotterdam, working as Subway Driver and Security Guard for the Public Transport Company.
I had also for many years kind of nightmares that kept ed me molesting for years. Sometimes I had these once, twice or more in a week, I remember even three during a night. I was seeking for the reason and answer to these experiences in books, without an clearly respond. Having a good relationship with my ex-girlfriend, she recommended me to visit a good therapist she saw once,
in a fair of natural healing therapy.
I started visiting him once a week and did receive Reiki, and we talked about life and spirituality themes I always liked to.
I told Hans about an experience I had in the summer of 1996.
I believe having an special encounter with my Spiritual Guide (Guardian Angel), it happened right after I felt attacked during that night by an strange force that was not me.
He explain ed to me that these were no nightmares, these were Out of Body Experiences, it´s very common he repeated to me, and everybody lives those. Thousands of people around the world do notice these experiences and you are just another of them.
I felt much better when I did heard that.
These were the Sleeping Paralysis. I still laugh when I remind my first visit because I insisted tried to convince the therapist that there were nightmares. Why are you calling them nightmares? Hans asked me again. I responded because I felt paralyzed, heard sounds, got jumped up and down without control, that´s the reason I repeated.
The following weeks after my first visit I discovered that these experiences were stopped, and I was very glad.
It was summer and I invited a friend from Spain for some weeks,
she was a teacher I met once during my vacations in my hometown, year before. We felt in love and were having a good time together. It was Thursday evening July 1998.
We went out had dinner, and once in my apartment we kissed
and made love. While we were together she scared and told me that she was having the feeling something was looking at us,
I though this is really weird, I calm her and decided to sleep.
We went sleeping separately, I remember was very tired and felt laying up on my bed and in very deep sleep.
I felt being holding up gather by my hands and elbows forwards,
I had a peaceful feeling that it was alright, no fear.
I saw a kind of white screen in front of me and let passed through
it. Later I saw a man having an conversation with me, I though it was a kind of special dream awake, because I could heard the sound of his voice. I saw him a bit blurry but enough to describe
what kind of clothes he was wearing (I saw half body).
There was landscape and this man was gentle. Had dark short hair,
and a short beard (elegant chin), he had and clear and white old style shirt, and a dark jacket.
The only thing I remembered of that voice is that he said something with two C´s during that conversation.
Later I saw an old man and a old women also, and after that
I remember taking or eating colored figures or balls.
When I woke up I wrote these all strange experience, the morning after (Friday 31 July 1998).
I wrote it in a small notebook, and the name that was more familiar to me "Constantino", looking backward the funniest thing of this is that years before I bought a book "The Lucid Dreamer" (Dutch version) from Malcolm Godwin because I was seeking for answers to my strange dreams, there I read ed the name Carlos Castaneda but when I saw about Shamanism, sorcery, dream methods, I said to myself I have already weird dreams, so was not interested to live such experiences had enough of all these stuff.
I told these experience to Hans, and he said that it was wonderful.
Weeks later Hans told me: "Joseph be like the midday sun, some people do enjoy with it and others got burned, the sun is always at the same place" right after he said "Carlos Castaneda".
I got surprised and told Hans "that was the man that kept an conversation with me weeks ago".
Hans told me that he was a writer that was passed over, he recommended me then to search in the libraries.
After this visit I went searching for Carlos books, bought some of them and became curious. I started a research.
Months later Hans recommended me to read about an Dutch recognized medium called Jozef Rulof, and later he told me to not become a follower of them. Just respect their works, and live my own experiences.
I learned much from Hans during ten months, the last months I saw him once on the two weeks.
I was planing to return to my hometown in June 1999, so I decided
to visit Hans the last week of May for saying good bye and receive the last treatment.
It was the second time that Hans started to talk about an vision he was seeing me living in an old block stone grey house (future),
he said that it was near a town and dry ground, sand, rocks on a mountain, there was a kind of spring also, and a little house near that stone one. There sun was shinning and I was having an conversation with a group of people outside, because the house was too small. He told me that it would be my home and center.
We made fun about because I asked him could I have an new house too, and not only in such dessert place of course you can
but in that old house you will be happier. You will feel great, he responded. I prefer both I said as a comfortable city boy.
Short after we said that there was a strange silence in the consult.
"-Carlos Castaneda is seeking to contact with you" Hans said,
ha, ha, ha, ha, he is showing himself here (Hans continue),
He says that he will be helping you when you will be talking with the group. I felt very emotional them, not because Carlos Castaneda was a famous writer, more because it confirmed to me that when we passed over we still know who we were, having conscience. I did believe in a life after death and this was for me the answer I wanted to receive personally. Not having it read ed in books or heard from someone.
The funiest thing is that Hans discribe Carlos with a small beard also "yes he has a small beard like the Spanish Duke Alva"
I wrote the morning 31 July 1998, have seen looking like a "Don Juan" I ment the Spanish "Don Juan Tenorio" because that small beard and the clothes I saw.
I asked Hans if he knew why someone like Carlos wanted to contact with a man that never did heard of him before.
-You´re spanish and probably you met eachother in lives before, Hans said.
This sesions were recorded by Hans and he gived always the tape to the patients. I have the tape and the notebook.
I was very happy but when I read ed about witches, I though that it was weird stuff and decided to keep silence and only revealed this secret to my family and best friends then.
I started an research about Carlos, and decided years later to published as a short story part of these experience.
I invited Hans one and half year ago to Granada, after all these years and on his way back to the Netherlands he told me that he saw a male and a female (spirits) with me, I know there are the same I saw that same night as the encounter I had with Carlos.
The male spiritual guide helps me with the Reiki initiations, and healing. A female spiritual guide normally do communication.
Carlos wasn´t with me then, he is just like a Freelance guide.
The only thing I want to tell you to everyone, friends, followers,
or detractors, is that no matter what he did or how he lived during his live. Wrote mixed fiction or not it is up to you.
He finally became in my point of view an Spiritual Guide.
Even Hans the therapist got surprised, because he told me that someone that passed over needs longer (earth) time to discover behind the veil, the spiritual spheres.
Carlos contacted consciously with an unknown person like me,
only three months after he passed over.
He is doing a great work from behind the veil and I am grateful to him. He showed me personally that life after death exists.
Thanks for reading and greetings from Granada, Spain.
Joseph.
